30 before 30 ... another update.

Back in 2015 I wrote a list of things I wanted to do/achieve by the time I became 30 in 2018. Which scarily is now next year. Ive updated the list once before, back in March 2016, you can read that here. I wanted to update it again as its been a while now & I know things have changed.

So here's the newest update:

Meh

Meh..... Totally sums up how I feel right now.

Today's post was supposed to be a review of a beauty box but I feel like if I post said blog post then I'll just be hiding the truth about how I'm feeling. Not just today but lately. So instead I thought I would just do an honest post.

My first week of work & Nan's operation.

Hey,

So not that I think anyone really noticed but I have been a bit absent from the blog. I've been a bit stressed, ill & just  haven't felt up to sitting down and writing. But I'm starting to feel better & am getting a bit more into a routine so thought I would get back on track.

Last week I started my new job as a Private Nanny, working for a single mother with two boys ages 7&8. For the sake of the blog I'll be referring to them as I & C. The job is only 3 days a week which is lovely as I can make enough money to survive, & pay the bills & it also means I can continue to do the things I love; spend time with family & Dan, blogging, Sorting out my house & other meaningless life things. Haha.

The boys are lovely. They are polite enough, need the odd push for a thank you but generally fine. They know their routine, there is no need to nag or ask them to brush teeth, wash faces, etc. Being 6&7 they are quite independent in the sense of they don't need help with toileting or asking for food/drinks, to be fair they usually get it themselves. The first week I usually just let them do what they want in regards to watching their TV programmes, playing games, etc as it gives me chance to get to know them & also see how much they moan/groan when I do ask them to do things.....well with these two I need not worry, they didn't moan when I asked them to read to me, or do their homework or the one I was dreading most, asking them to tidy their rooms, But not a single moan from them at all. So it's fair to say I'm pretty happy with these kids. Obviously it's not going to be plain sailing but they have a good base to work with.. I only look forward to learning more from them & also to helping them grow & develop.

Seen this little poem & thought it was great.

Also last week my grandmother had an operation on a lump in her saliva glands. The surgery took three hours, and was a success, the opening that they had to stitch back up looks like it's in the neck creases & goes around the front side of her ear, but when it has healed I don't think you'll be able to really tell what's happened. She's is recovering well which is great as we were all worried how she would cope after the anaesthetic & with the Parkinson's. My Grandfathers chemo has stopped for the time being, he had 4 doses, is that the word (?), and they said that he could potentially have more in the future if needed. He got a bit ill last when Nan was in hospital, he was out of breath and extremely tired, he's perked up a bit now after having another chest drain & the specialists decided that a permanent drain needs to be fitted so he can have it drained more often. So with the both of them going through what they are I've been a bit stressed and worn out. They are off to a day at the races tomorrow for my Nan's birthday on Sunday.


I plan on having a relaxing weekend and spending it doing all the things I need to do & spending my
time with my girl. What do you have planned?

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30 things to do before I'm 30

Hey,

So with the new year fast approaching its the time when people think about what this resolutions are going to be, I usually make a few but never fully complete them, so this year I thought I would do something different & create a list of things I want to do before I'm 30 years old, which will be August 2018. I will update regularly.... Say every 3 months?? I'll post this list with checks or updates to let you all know how I'm getting on.


Here's the list;

Travel:
- [ ] Rome
- [ ] Australia (neighbours set)
- [ ] America (Hollywood)
- [ ] Paris
- [ ] New York

Money;
- [ ] Save money for IVF (£3000+)
- [ ] Save money for emergencies (£1000+)
- [ ] Be comfortable with monthly income & outgoings

Love;
- [ ] Move in with Dan
- [ ] Love myself more (be more confident & care less about others)
- [ ] Be totally surprised by an amazing romantic gesture/weekend


Day/Weekend Trips
- [ ] National history museum
- [ ] Night out drinking London
- [ ] Cadbury world
- [ ] Walk Pen-Y-Fan
- [ ] Weekend at the beach- Tenby
- [ ] Visit ; Bristol Zoo, Longleat, West Midlands Safari Park


Treat myself;
- [ ] Head to Toe spa day
- [ ] Decent family car
- [ ] Hot air balloon ride
- [ ] Find the perfect little black dress
- [ ] Go to a homesense uk store


Work;
- [ ] Complete the childminding course
- [ ] Set up my own business
- [ ] Be successful (have a good name for myself)


General;
- [ ] Read all the books on my bookshelf
- [ ] Take part in a charity run
- [ ] Do something amazing for charity
- [ ] Meet my ideal weight (under 10stone)
- [ ] Meet a blogger/internet friend




Do you have any resolutions in mind or things you want to achieve in the next few years? Let me know. 

Love Coco, 

What a week......

Hey,

So my intention of this blog was to talk about setting up my childminding business & a little about my crafting & general life things. If you read my previous blog post you'll have seen that my grandfather got diagnosed with Mesothelioma, a type of cancer on the lining of his lung. This obviously took us all by surprise & has made me extremely emotional, even more than usual.

I felt like I needed to write down what I was feeling, I went back & fore with myself as to whether or not to post it but I just felt a little relieved when I pressed send... Just getting it out there made me feel a little more calm. Even though I really don't feel calm in any way. It's been a crazy week of emotions, from me, feeling like an utter failure at everything I do, feeling like my Bamp will never be able to be proud of me. It's also been a crazy week of appointments and things to do. Needed to take my grandmother shopping, I needed to go to the bank, the job centre, the doctors surgery.

 I also needed to take my Nan for her pre-op check, she is having surgery on a lump in her saliva glands, that luckily isn't cancerous, the surgery is going to be 3 hours long & she has to have a anaesthetic.... Hopefully. They may decide that because of her Parkinson's disease they won't be able to do it, which will not be good as the lump will grow & could become cancerous. Twice whilst I was at the hospital with Nan did I have to stop myself crying as she was talking to the Nurses she told them about my Bamp& I could see her getting upset & it breaks my heart. I am very close to my grandparents & it's just so harsh & horrible that this is happening. So that was Thursday.

Friday was Bamps first chemo session, originally I was taking him as I was the only one available as aunts & uncles were in work, however it turned out that my one uncle was given the day off & as he was supposed to be having a knee operation he would take them as that would be the last bit of driving he could do for 6 weeks, more on that in a minute. So Uncle N took my Nan&Bamp for the first chemo session, I went to the house when they got back, he talked a little about it, mainly because I asked questions. I read the paperwork & looked at his tablets, checked that my Nan was okay & then came home. Hopefully the chemo won't affect him in any way that will make him ill but only time will tell with that.

And so that brings us to today, Saturday, as mentioned above my Uncle N was supposed to be having a knee operation today but unfortunately it got cancelled last minute as his blood levels were too high when they did the tests on Wednesday. So this is not good news, although he was dreading the op and not being able to go out & drive, he needed it done asap as he is in a lot of pain & he has decided that if he can't get it done before January he's going to wait until July because of their wedding in May. I understand in a way why he wants to wait until after the wedding. It the last thing we need is for him to be in severe pain & doing more damage.

So yea, they say things come in threes & there they are, my Nan, my Bamp & my uncle. Let's just please keep our fingers crossed as I don't think any of us can take any more.