Monday motivation....

Monday motivation... now I know it’s the Christmas/New Year period and it’s the time of year where we all say “sod it it’s Christmas” (some way or another) and have that extra piece of cake or extra biscuit , whatever it may be. I’m certainly guilty to that. But it’s also the time of year that I look back at what I’ve achieved over the year. I aimed to be a lot lighter than I am but as everyone knows the journey to success isn’t simple.

June 2017 weighing my heaviest at nearly 13 stone

 

This first picture was from Disneyland Paris June 2017  I look back at these pictures now with a little bit of sadness as I’m at my heaviest, I’d not taken care of myself at all. So in March 2018 I started my weight loss journey I wanted to be at least a stone and a half lighter by my November 2018 disney trip... I did well to start... we would have our once a week treat - just the one thing, then as time went on and the lbs were coming off slower it got harder and harder and instead of pushing through I started to crack... I’d have a treat day where everything I ate was unhealthy... this started turning into a mid week treat too and things surely started to slide.... I was still  eating my healthier meals but it was the extra treats and the takeaways when we couldn’t be bothered to cook. 

When I’d lost about a stone and saw this picture it made me more determined

November 2018- I feel better but I’ve still got more to go

I didn’t only want to lose weight for the way I looked but to also try and be healthier to go through fertility treatment and carry a baby. The whole point in me writing this is .. I may not be at my goal weight in the recent pictures but I am happier in myself (that’s come from many other things) however I aim to get back into the healthier eating and adding exercise in as that’s the other key to being healthy. I’m going to enjoy the end of the year with eating that piece of cake or having a few biscuits because I know I CAN DO IT , I CAN get back into it and I CAN be happy and healthy & still have treats- I’ve just got to be sensible about it.! 

Feeling lonely...

Its October 27th. D is in work and has been out the house since 11.30 this morning, we had a short 2 hours together before she had to leave, I wont see her again until about midnight. That's not her fault, that's the joys of her job especially now she is a RGM (Store Manager to you and me).

 

 

I haven't really done anything today, nothing worthwhile anyways, I don't know if there was something I could of done but nothing was screaming to me to be done so I have made dinner, cleaned up, cleaned the bathroom and kitchen, opened my mail and then sat down to catch up on instagram. All things I generally don't mind doing but today I just don't feel myself. I feel lonely. I don't have any friends who pop in to see me, the friends I do have are the other end of the phone/country/planet..... ok a bit over the top but still.... I have "spoken" to people today but as usual its me doing the communicating first... is it so bad that I want someone to message me first, to ask how I am first, to make me feel cared about. I know I am loved but sometimes it feels its only because they have to.

 

 

I always thought growing up that I would have friends who I would hang out with, go to the coffee shops with, go shopping with, who would just pop in or not mind if I popped into theirs. I have never had that. I don't know if I ever will. I like to think that I still have plenty of time to make those friendships, that when I move town I will find those friends, when I have children and they have friends and I'll make friends with those parents. I don't know if that will ever happen, I don't know right now if the me having children thing will happen. Most of my waking thoughts are about that, so many reminders everywhere, in the shops, on social media, in the family.... these months are flying by and I am no closer to where I want to be on so many levels. I sit and I wallow and then I get this fight in my stomach telling me you wont get where you want to be sitting on your ass doing nothing but there is only so much you can fight. I do believe one day things will go my way, I've had 30 years of setbacks, I can handle another 30 more.... believe me I can but I don't want to. I want to break the cycle of feeling low, fighting to make it better, getting knocked back and starting all over again.

One day I will. Will today be the start of that new chapter??

 

 

Writing about it has made me feel a little less heavy. I have so much I want to write about but today is not the day.... soon. Soon I will share more of my journey and hope that in years to come I can look back and tell myself;  "I told you so, I told you things will go your way." If you have read this far I thank you and I apologise if you feel like you've wasted your time.

 

 

Love Coco

 xxxx

I’m back.

Hey. 

So it’s been a while, a long while, since I blogged but it was something I wanted to get back into this year. I know I’m a bit late to actually posting... it’s now May! 🙈

 BUT I have got two posts that I wrote one back in January and one in February but after that it kinda took a back seat for a while. 

However I’ve decided now is the time to get back into it. I want to update you all with what’s been happening in my life, where the childminding is at & share with you some news. 

I’ll start by updating you on what’s been happening and then I’ll post the write ups that I kept in my notes on my phone & upload them soon but I’m not 100% sure when all will be posted just yet. So keep your eyes peeled because I’m back and hopefully back for good..... (did anyone else just sing that or me???) 

Love Coco xxxx

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Sing.....

So had to do a mini film post because I was sooooo excited for Sing.. to be out in the cinema. If you haven't seen any trailers then click here. Also this is the blurb;

Dapper Koala Buster Moon presides over a once-grand theatre that has fallen on hard times. An eternal optimist, and a bit of a scoundrel, he loves his theatre above all and will do anything to preserve it. Facing the crumbling of his life's ambition, he takes one final chance to restore his fading jewel to its former glory by producing the world's greatest singing competition. Five contestants emerge: a mouse, a timid elephant, a pig, a gorilla and a punk-rock porcupine.

image from Google

I'm a big fan of X Factor, The Voice etc so a film based on that type of show with animals was just totally going to be a hit for me. 

I loved the songs, the characters and the story. I would defo recommend it to anyone, especially if you've got kids as they will love it, and also you wont look as sad in the cinema as D & I did. hahaha. 

Love Coco xxxx

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30 before 30 ... another update.

Back in 2015 I wrote a list of things I wanted to do/achieve by the time I became 30 in 2018. Which scarily is now next year. Ive updated the list once before, back in March 2016, you can read that here. I wanted to update it again as its been a while now & I know things have changed.

So here's the newest update:

Buying my car....

I finally got a new car.... yay....!!

 A car that doesn't sound like an aeroplane when the engine switches off.! A car that isn't old.

2017 Goals

I may be a bit late in the month to upload this but I had other posts I wanted to upload first.

I never really make resolutions as they always get broken so this year I thought I would make more of a To Achieve/To Do list. Back last year D & I made a list of things we wanted to do/places we wanted to go so that will be continuing & then I made some personal goals & Social Media goals. 

Impractical Jokers

On the 12th January 2017 D & I went to Birmingham for 3 days. 

Back in March last year I bought tickets for the Impractical Jokers 'Santiago Sent Us' Tour.

Films of 2016

As D is a big film fan we spend quite a bit of time going to the cinema, probably dont watch as many films as D would like mind but more than I would usually.

So in 2016 I thougt it would be nice to keep a list of all the films we watched. Ive split it into 2 categories; Cinema Visits & Home, pretty self explanitary. 

A-Z of 2016

I thought I would do a round up of my year a little differently.
So heres my A-Z of 2016;

A - Angharad - my Auntie got married in May & it was the nicest bank holiday weather we have had in forever. Lovely day. I loved my dress & I had a great time being Bridesmaid for the first time. 

Secret Santa

Thanks to Twitter and the lovely Hayley who organised a blogger Secret Santa. It's been years since I've been involved in a secret santa so this was lovely. Hayley used a website to add us all to which automatically drew the names for us all we needed to do was add our "wish list" and address (which only the chosen person could see). It also had a chat section, which was lovely as people left their links so that we could all get to know each other more. 

Anyways to my gift; 

I recieved this lovely little parcel about 2 days before xmas & as I was waiting for presents for other people I opened it early. I was pleasantly surprised... 

What I Got For Christmas 2016

Not showing off or bragging but I think I did pretty alright for presents this year. Majority of the things I received were things I wanted/asked for & I got some other lovely stuff. 

Obviously I'm not going to list it all here it's just a quick round up. I had a lot of chocolate; from Marzipan to Malteasers, Chocolate Orange to Ferroro Rocher. I wont starve for a while.. Haha! 

Elf On The Shelf Week 2...

Ugh the blooming elf !!!  I have lost count of the amount of times I've said that & get annoyed with myself because I havent moved the elf or thought of a good idea.

I am so glad I am getting the practice in now before  I have children because I have definitely learnt from it.

Here's what the Elf got up to this past week;

My New Job;

If you follow me on twitter or follow this blog, (firstly thank you), you will know I started a job this week. In Retail, in a local supermarket... I have worked in retail before but within the fast food environment. I must be mad... its December... the busiest time of the year!!! Luckily I dont have too much to do with customers as my job is more with stock & with pulling the items off the shelf that will be going out of date that day and marking it down (those lovely yellow stickers).

Elf On The Shelf

Even though there are no children, well no real children, in my house both myself & Dan are pretty much big kids when it comes to certain things. So I thought I'd join in on the Elf On The Shelf shenanigans. I bought my cute little elf from Matalan & started planning.

Pinch Punch First Of The Month

I CANNOT BELIEVE IT IS DECEMBER!!!!


Seriously. Where has this year gone! So much has happened, some good and defintely some bad but seeing as its the 1st of December I thought I needed a change. The lovely Claire over at AlohaLola made me my new blog header/picture. I am so amazed by it. I can't believe its me!! Haha.

What I've Been Up To This Week;

So this was supposed to upload on Thursday but it didnt. Ooopsie.

This week has been a crazy busy week. Monday I had a visit from my ex mother-in-law. She is an absolutely lovely lady who I have known for 12 years & she treated me like her own daughter, but even though me & her daughter arent together anymore we still stay in touch & she comes to visit me & my nan every now & again. Also on Monday I was waiting in for a delivery. As our main Christmas present from my Stepmother & Father we ordered this beautiful dressing table from Dunelm. I am in love. I plan on getting the whole Toulouse Set as its so beautiful.

My Childminding Journey so far..

So as you know I started this blog to talk about my life, what I get up to, my crafting & my childminding journey. I thought seeing as I've been gone a while I would update you as to what has happened.
Starting with the childminding as thats something I'm using a lot of energy on at the moment.

Am I over my writers block????

Hey,

Well I'm back. I'm hoping for the long haul but we shall see. It's been just over a year since I started this blog & I think I managed about 31 posts. This is okay for someone just starting out, IMO. However I am not happy with this. I want to do better. I want to be better! Not just at blogging but at life.

Sunny Beach, Bulgaria

Hey,

So D & I went on holiday to Sunny Beach, Bulgaria for one week in August. It was our first week away just the two of us. D's first holiday as a couple as she's used to group holidays. It was great to have time for just us two without having to run around doing errands.