Monday motivation....

Monday motivation... now I know it’s the Christmas/New Year period and it’s the time of year where we all say “sod it it’s Christmas” (some way or another) and have that extra piece of cake or extra biscuit , whatever it may be. I’m certainly guilty to that. But it’s also the time of year that I look back at what I’ve achieved over the year. I aimed to be a lot lighter than I am but as everyone knows the journey to success isn’t simple.

June 2017 weighing my heaviest at nearly 13 stone

 

This first picture was from Disneyland Paris June 2017  I look back at these pictures now with a little bit of sadness as I’m at my heaviest, I’d not taken care of myself at all. So in March 2018 I started my weight loss journey I wanted to be at least a stone and a half lighter by my November 2018 disney trip... I did well to start... we would have our once a week treat - just the one thing, then as time went on and the lbs were coming off slower it got harder and harder and instead of pushing through I started to crack... I’d have a treat day where everything I ate was unhealthy... this started turning into a mid week treat too and things surely started to slide.... I was still  eating my healthier meals but it was the extra treats and the takeaways when we couldn’t be bothered to cook. 

When I’d lost about a stone and saw this picture it made me more determined

November 2018- I feel better but I’ve still got more to go

I didn’t only want to lose weight for the way I looked but to also try and be healthier to go through fertility treatment and carry a baby. The whole point in me writing this is .. I may not be at my goal weight in the recent pictures but I am happier in myself (that’s come from many other things) however I aim to get back into the healthier eating and adding exercise in as that’s the other key to being healthy. I’m going to enjoy the end of the year with eating that piece of cake or having a few biscuits because I know I CAN DO IT , I CAN get back into it and I CAN be happy and healthy & still have treats- I’ve just got to be sensible about it.! 

Feeling lonely...

Its October 27th. D is in work and has been out the house since 11.30 this morning, we had a short 2 hours together before she had to leave, I wont see her again until about midnight. That's not her fault, that's the joys of her job especially now she is a RGM (Store Manager to you and me).

 

 

I haven't really done anything today, nothing worthwhile anyways, I don't know if there was something I could of done but nothing was screaming to me to be done so I have made dinner, cleaned up, cleaned the bathroom and kitchen, opened my mail and then sat down to catch up on instagram. All things I generally don't mind doing but today I just don't feel myself. I feel lonely. I don't have any friends who pop in to see me, the friends I do have are the other end of the phone/country/planet..... ok a bit over the top but still.... I have "spoken" to people today but as usual its me doing the communicating first... is it so bad that I want someone to message me first, to ask how I am first, to make me feel cared about. I know I am loved but sometimes it feels its only because they have to.

 

 

I always thought growing up that I would have friends who I would hang out with, go to the coffee shops with, go shopping with, who would just pop in or not mind if I popped into theirs. I have never had that. I don't know if I ever will. I like to think that I still have plenty of time to make those friendships, that when I move town I will find those friends, when I have children and they have friends and I'll make friends with those parents. I don't know if that will ever happen, I don't know right now if the me having children thing will happen. Most of my waking thoughts are about that, so many reminders everywhere, in the shops, on social media, in the family.... these months are flying by and I am no closer to where I want to be on so many levels. I sit and I wallow and then I get this fight in my stomach telling me you wont get where you want to be sitting on your ass doing nothing but there is only so much you can fight. I do believe one day things will go my way, I've had 30 years of setbacks, I can handle another 30 more.... believe me I can but I don't want to. I want to break the cycle of feeling low, fighting to make it better, getting knocked back and starting all over again.

One day I will. Will today be the start of that new chapter??

 

 

Writing about it has made me feel a little less heavy. I have so much I want to write about but today is not the day.... soon. Soon I will share more of my journey and hope that in years to come I can look back and tell myself;  "I told you so, I told you things will go your way." If you have read this far I thank you and I apologise if you feel like you've wasted your time.

 

 

Love Coco

 xxxx

I’m back.

Hey. 

So it’s been a while, a long while, since I blogged but it was something I wanted to get back into this year. I know I’m a bit late to actually posting... it’s now May! 🙈

 BUT I have got two posts that I wrote one back in January and one in February but after that it kinda took a back seat for a while. 

However I’ve decided now is the time to get back into it. I want to update you all with what’s been happening in my life, where the childminding is at & share with you some news. 

I’ll start by updating you on what’s been happening and then I’ll post the write ups that I kept in my notes on my phone & upload them soon but I’m not 100% sure when all will be posted just yet. So keep your eyes peeled because I’m back and hopefully back for good..... (did anyone else just sing that or me???) 

Love Coco xxxx

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Sing.....

So had to do a mini film post because I was sooooo excited for Sing.. to be out in the cinema. If you haven't seen any trailers then click here. Also this is the blurb;

Dapper Koala Buster Moon presides over a once-grand theatre that has fallen on hard times. An eternal optimist, and a bit of a scoundrel, he loves his theatre above all and will do anything to preserve it. Facing the crumbling of his life's ambition, he takes one final chance to restore his fading jewel to its former glory by producing the world's greatest singing competition. Five contestants emerge: a mouse, a timid elephant, a pig, a gorilla and a punk-rock porcupine.

image from Google

I'm a big fan of X Factor, The Voice etc so a film based on that type of show with animals was just totally going to be a hit for me. 

I loved the songs, the characters and the story. I would defo recommend it to anyone, especially if you've got kids as they will love it, and also you wont look as sad in the cinema as D & I did. hahaha. 

Love Coco xxxx

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30 before 30 ... another update.

Back in 2015 I wrote a list of things I wanted to do/achieve by the time I became 30 in 2018. Which scarily is now next year. Ive updated the list once before, back in March 2016, you can read that here. I wanted to update it again as its been a while now & I know things have changed.

So here's the newest update: